Wednesday, September 23, 2009
stroke of luck
was just on the bus this morning, observing my crowds as usual. noticed an auntie taking out her pencil and writing against a notepad. numbers were all she scribbled and they came in fours. without a doubt i guessed she must be thinking of the next combination to bet on in 4D. she had shifty eyes, as if worried that others may notice what she was doing, and occasionally stopped along with the brakes of the double decker. before i could continue noticing, i had to alight.
somewhere sometime somehow in our lives, we do find ourselves looking/searching/putting hope in the abstract concept of luck. luck cannot be measured, can only be viewed from our personal POVs and can be EXTREMELY subjective. for me, luck is the product of forced affirmation. after something really good or really bad happen to us, we, as humans, will attribute the negatives to externalities and the positives to self. if we are able to find things/objects/people/factors to blame our misfortune on, then that's that. otherwise, we create this alternative channel through which we push our blame onto. ("oh damn i got caught in the rain.. just my luck"). similarly, if we are unable to find sufficient reasons to credit ourselves for the good that happens to us, we will also say things like "oh great i got the highest grade in class though i didn't study that hard. i'm really in luck!". so i guess we humans become lazier by the day as we use this concept of luck as a convenient excuse to account for various aspects of our lives.
putting things in perspective does help to avoid that pothole. however, as Asians, those who do not wish to seem like they are boasting their achievements or being seen as trying too hard to find that perfect excuse to explain their misfortune will tend to use luck for justifications. moreover, luck is a concept which many Singaporeans, if not all, will subscribe to given that we already have so much on our plates and only 10% of our pea brains function at best. so bad/tragic/disastrous/good/happy/exhilarating things happen and because of our laziness, these things are mostly explained by that stroke of luck that exists somewhere in us.
i guess i have always been the lucky girl with a comfortable life and i have always been in luck with studies. i am also lucky enough to be exposed to all kinds of leisure activities, be it sports, arts, music, dance, or even travel. however, all's not smooth sailing. there are times when my luck fails, and i stumble and fall along the way, but i believe that when things go so bad, they can't get any worse so i know my luck will return in due time. i am also lucky to have met wonderful people in the various activities i involve myself in and i think i am lucky to have the opportunity to work with the best, be it in school or at my internship. however, as much as many tell me that i have been unlucky in things like love, i beg to differ because the concept of love is so noble that it would not justify to associate love with luck. in any case, i still believe that love deserves the highest order of regard and people should stop blaming misfortunes of love or attributing happiness in love on luck.
Lucky by Jason Mraz
Do you hear me,
I'm talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky oh my, baby I'm trying
Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Oooohhhhoohhhhohhooohhooohhooohoooh
They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music, fell the air
I'll put a flower in your hair
Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I'm lucky we're in love in every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday
Ooohh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooooh ooooh oooh oooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
irony of it all is that I still like this song. hur hurs.