Friday, December 18, 2009
happiness
at the SQ lounge now, thinking of what to do for the next half an hr, so decided to pop an update here. well heading to HK soon! like FINALLY. and after the whole visa saga for my vietnam trip, going to the airport does create some sort of paranoia in me. passport, checked. IC, checked. phone,checked. laptop, checked. contact lens, checked. xmas gifts, checked. joyful spirits, checked. its finally the xmas season, marking the end of 2009. what a year. im like counting down to the end of my HK trip, which is in 10days, and then the end of my KL trip, which is another 17 days, and that marks the beginning of my freedom. -beams-
well, on hindsight, i guess i was really looking forward to my trip to vietnam, holding certain expectations and ideals about the short holiday. but shit happens, and when shit happens, you just gotta learn how to clean it up. some people leave the shit there to stink, some will just use a piece of tissue to wipe it up, while some will go all out by wiping and spraying air freshener for better hygiene. well, i guess most ppl will choose the 2nd alternative, but i decided to just go all out to rid of those shit. filled up the 5 days with things i wanted to do, or even try things i never thought i would. it may sound like im just consoling myself, but i really am starting to see things in a positive light.
it maybe a blessing in disguise that i didnt get to go cos...
i could then settle my US visa earlier.
i managed to tryout waveboarding at wavehouse@Sentosa
i met up with friends whom i have not caught up with in a long while
i learnt a very important lesson in travelling that i swear i will never make the same mistake again
i had friends who really cared and helped me get over it and for tt im grateful
i had time to run miscelleneous errands for my exchange
i could go for my last salsa intermediate 1.5 class and social dance as well
i realised that im not cut for gambling at mike's MJ & poker session
i had time to read this book "the secret" which changed my perspective on life a little
well, i guess the list could go on if i want it to, but yeah just a few top-of-the-mind things that i gained from not going to vietnam. of cos, if given a chance to i'd choose the trip over all these but when things go wrong, i guess one can only make the best out of what's left. and i'm glad i did. (:
a friend once told me, "shun, you gotta know that everything happened for a reason. so instead of brooding over your mishaps, learn to see what the reason is, believe in that reason and be happy about it." cos i think happiness is something man harness in himself. as much as others can do things to trigger that sense of joy in you, if you don't acknowledge and allow it to manifest, it will never be in you. why else do we see the poverty around the world being so happy seeing that sack of rice donated by UN while some of the richest people in the world will not budge even if they have stacks of gold bars. happiness is when you have ownership over what you feel is truly significant to you. it can be tangibles like money, cars, houses, or intagibles like love, family ties, gratitude, or recognition. i guess i gained happiness from the love that ppl showered on me through tt travel experience gone wrong. (: even my dad, although he laughed heartily at my mishap (cos he really was worried about me going vietnam cos he thinks its hell there), i know that he laughed cos he loved me.
i think i will be really happy girl... with the 7 month freedom to come. -grins
